Simplify

Simplifying has been my goal for the last few months.

I recently found myself so caught up in my job as a nanny, having a business of my own, being a mom, wife, friend, sister...etc. 

I felt like I had to do it all. 

I thought I liked being busy and having so much to do.

I couldn't say No to anything..and I didn't want to miss out on anything. 

I didn't want to let anyone down.

I started to get stressed and snappy (poor jason)

I keep piling more on my load than i could handle.

It's a weird thing right now in the world of motherhood, where it seems like every single mom is doing it all (at least that's what they might want you to think?). and it makes you feel like you have to too. 

at least that's how i was feeling.

i also think my role as a mom was so new and i was trying to figure myself out in the midst of it.

i took a step back to revaluate my life and really focus on the reasons i was being stressed and felt so pulled in different directions.

i started to cut things out. 

my nannying job ended for the school year and i decided i was done. i loved the family so much, but needed to focus on my own family more.

i stopped my business. 

i went back and forth with this for months but finally decided that it wasn't a passion of mine

and it was making me more stressed than it was happy.

as soon as i did that i felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders.

i learned to say no to things. it's ok if i miss out on events and activities.

i learned to prioritize better and do things that made me happy just for me and my family.

not for anyone else to see or show.

just for me. for us.

and you guys...I FEEL AMAZING.

i feel so free and so happy.

i love waking up every day planning out our day on our own schedule and no one else's.

i am doing video projects for people a bit more, but that's not busy work to me. 

that is a passion of mine.

and is more like a hobby than anything else.

i do still like to be busy, but not stressful busy. 

i like plans and we have to get out every day, but that's for us! for our happiness.

because in the end, that really is the end all, be all purpose in this lie.

our own progression, our family's happiness.